At last this week has just miraculously passed. The current job that I am working at is coming to an end on Wednesday 6th Sept. The job is fantastic, I do get to learn much hands-on skills yet it will not attribute to my studies. 2 weeks ago when I learnt about this issue, I was on a job hunt once again. I have sent dozens of applications both to Singapore firms as well as local firms. As usual I did not get any responses but still I perservere. Finally I got a call from this company and it was the job that I was very much would love to have. It is a mid-tier size finance company that deals with salary sacrificing for both employers and employees. And my job would be an internal auditor for the clients.

On Tues, I took time off for the interview and I wasn't all well-prepared at all. I seriously thought I have stuffed the whole thing up and I was feeling dejected the whole day. On the same day, my manager told me that they have found a permanent girl to replace my role and I was even more determined that I need to get a job asap.

Wednesday passed and Thurs, finally I received a call from the company offering me the position! I was stoked! And the same day, my dear friend, Deborah, has finally got her PR approved!!! Prior to Thursday, both of us have our own problems. She found out about her visa was inappropriate for work but she has been working for a couple of months. Another friend of mine, Jessica, was also having her personal problems and I must admit all the negative vibes didn't make the week an easy one to go through. We were as though stuck in a rut and all these problems were beyond one's control.

Friday I met Benny for dinner and after work drinks. I have been wondering where Benny MIA to as the last 2 months, there was no news from him so I thought he was busy with his stuff. And I was just chatting with my friend about Benny and the next day, Benny called for dinner! hahahaa... Long life Benny ~

After the meeting with Benny, I rushed home to get ready to meet Him at 9pm. We met some new friends but I wasn't in the mood. I did mention that I was busy on Friday and he said:" No way, we are meeting on Friday". So we still met but I was so tired by that time. After some time, he and I were having a conversation and I kept on saying No No No.... he got pissed at me! He just say: Go away, everything is No. For the first time, he was using reverse psychology on me! I can't bear to reject him so I just agreed to some issues we were having. I looked into his eyes the whole night and I realised that we were drifting apart. Although he is just next to me, it just seems that he was a different person and I can't seem to find the connection that I had before. It's definitely something foreign and I am uncertain if this is a good or bad thing. I had to pull a happy face in front of our friends and at the back of my head can't wait for the night to be over. I just don't want to entertain anybody. I wish I am really really sick now or have chicken pox or measles or whatever so I will be able to avoid any meetings with him or the friends for the next few weeks. Even I say no, that word doesn't seem to exist in his dictionary.

Or maybe the week has been a long one and I just wanted to spend some time alone with him but he had to organise drinks and a get-together with friends.

When they was at my place last night, he needed to use the internet for a bit and I forgotten to close the rsvp window and he saw it.

*His comments:" Oh you are on rsvp, finding someone new to get rid of me?"
*My thought: Hmmm.... am I suppose to stay by your side for God knows how long?

Fuck that, I need my own space now. I can't be stuffed with all these unnecessary issues in my life now.







Weather: Spring is here :)

Music: It ain't over till it's over - Lenny Kravitz

Mood: frustrated.